I think that if I could find a purely intellectual partner I would be much more happy.
I'm uncomfortable with feelings. and they are always changing anyways. They get too intense and people get too close too quickly.
I could tell people all day long about my past and all of the ups and downs and the bad things and the good things but it would be like reading a story. It's not who I am and it doesn't make us closer. All it does is perhaps open a topic we may both have something to discuss on. I guess what people don't seem to see is that just because we talk about things doesn't mean you are emotionally close to me.
knowing things about a person doesn't mean you know them.
Theres really so much going on inside. I'm getting so frustrated because of how much my mind is working. Overdrive trying to process all of my emotions and reactions. Sorting the information i have currently...