It was all swelling up inside of me. Turmoiled, self doubting, dissillusioned I stumbled until this point.
Things are still not clear but now I have a vision of what I want. Its a vision of beauty love and eternity. Things that are all around every one of us, yet are so hard to obtain for yourself. I aspire to have these things all to myself. Is this a selfish desire... I'm not sure if I care.
These are things I think we should hope to have and strive for... but so many do not, and placate themselves with mindless passions and obesessions. I tire of these absurdities and sideshow attractions.
I will find more.